Yesterday I was talking about the Dream Board that I made and one of my dreams was to get a job. If you have been reading my little blog for a while or if you just read my “about me” section then you know that I have been job hunting for some time now. There have been many ups and downs during this time and a lot of disappointment along with frustration and the newest one of disbelief. (Some places are just rude.) I have always tried to be as positive as I could be about the whole situation and tell myself that it will happen when it is supposed to happen. And I still believe that. After my awesome meltdown yesterday from dealing with dumb people, I realized that I could complain about it and be upset and keep doing what I have been doing OR I could change what I am doing. I could try something different. I’m not sure what exactly is going to be different, but I am going to start with my dream that I turned into a goal on my dream board. I have made a plan, one that I can stick with and accomplish each day. I am excited. I hope it brings some change and hopefully a job.
Anyways, so thats what I have to say for today. Exciting, right? Well, on an even more exciting note, my new spring line arrived on my doorstep today 🙂
So I am going to sandwich my not as fun post between some awesomely adorable pictures of Ellie.
I guess I haven’t written about my job situation in a while. It was one of the main reasons I started a blog. But lately, it seems, that everything is getting a little redundant and I have nothing new to say. Just the same old applying and interviewing and nothing working out. I think part of the reason things aren’t working out when I apply outside my speech area, is not because I don’t have the knowledge or the experience, but that someone probably has a million percent more knowledge and experience than me because this is THEIR field. And this is hard for me because I don’t think I want to do speech anymore. I have had one good experience working in this field and the rest haven’t been so awesome. Maybe thats what ruined it for me. looking back and remembering how I was treated. Even now when I go volunteer, I sit there and watch and do nothing else because she has nothing for me to do.
So I think it is time for a real change. How do I figure out what I want to do with my life. I have always been a planner and I am not very good at not knowing. Especially when it comes to where my life is going. I mean, I am going to be 25 in less than 2 weeks and this is definitely NOT where I thought I would be. It is completely freaking me out.
So how do I decide what I want to do? Where does one even start? I have gone to my local community college’s career center, and they were absolutely no help. I thought they were joking when they told me to “google it”. Are you serious? When I tried to use my old university’s career center, they told me that because I was no longer a student, I would need to pay $60 to use their services. Wait what? Let me get this straight, I could have used it when I was in school and not looking for a job, but now that I have graduated and need a job I can’t? You make no sense.
I guess maybe I should actually read this book I bought last year. Maybe that will help? Who knows.
But here is to change and to not knowing. Hopefully I can figure this out sooner rather than later. And here is to a post that hopefully makes some sort of sense, since I never proof read these things. Also, here is to you, for reading this long, and not so awesomely positive post. You rock if you made it all the way through.
She was so mad I made her wear a sweater.