I am busting out my soap box right now. So watch out. Just FYI.

I want to talk about job searching. Especially right out of college. As in your first time ever trying to find a full time job. Note that I said full time. Full time and part time are different, I’m talking about first time, straight out of college, looking for a job with benefits and a retirement plan. Don’t expect to get your dream job right off the bat. Or even within a few months. Especially if you are in a field with 9382572382309742985 people who are looking for a job. It is tough out there! And remember that there is always going to be someone with more experience than you looking for a job too.

Finding a job is hard work. Even if you have an awesome resume and cover letter and great experience. Don’t get mad or frustrated after a month if you don’t find a job. (you can get mad and frustrated everyday, but don’t think that there is something wrong with you because you haven’t found a job yet)

Use any and all resources you have. Apply for jobs that you would be ok with having until you find your dream job. Also, don’t think that you are about to get paid a crap ton of money your first run out. It ain’t gonna happen. If it does happen, then, right on! But don’t not take your dream job because it pays you $5,000 less than what you want to be making.

I know that everyone’s situation is completely different. I have just hear a lot of people talk about how they are sucking because they haven’t found a job yet and they graduated a month ago…

Another thing to realize that if you aren’t yet looking for a job but will be soon, don’t think that it will necessarily happen right away. It most likely won’t. It might, but it probably won’t, so have a plan, and a back up plan.

Trying to find a job sucks. It is a full time job. But remember to enjoy the time you have off. You aren’t going to get that again for a really long time.

You may not agree with me and that is ok. This is my opinion. I hope you read this and feel better, not like I am trying to attack anyone. Because I am not. Basically I am saying that finding a job is hard. Don’t beat yourself up if you don’t find one right away.

On a lighter note:

Happy Wednesday!

Linking up with Shanna.



As many of you know, the reason I started this blog was because I was unemployed and needed a place to keep me on track and give me some consistency. It helped me get through the good and the bad times. There were plenty of both, but this little space on here gave me the opportunity to feel productive even if it was the smallest things. For example, when you don’t have a job to get dressed for every morning, pajamas seem pretty baller all the time. But then at the end of the week you feel pretty crappy that you didn’t get dressed at all. So that was my reason for outfit posts. Not because I think that I am super fashionable and think the world cares what I am wearing because I look oh so cute all the time. Nope, I just needed to have a reason to get dressed at least once a week…

I also got a chance to reflect on the positive with my High 5 For Friday posts. I tried to be as positive as I could during my time of unemployment but sometimes it was damn hard. No lie. So when Friday rolled around and I needed 5 good things that had happened over the week, it forced me to look at all the good things that happened. Sometimes it was super easy to come up with 5 but not always. 

Wednesdays, I got to share my joblessness with you. It also allowed me to prove to myself that I really was trying. That I wasn’t just sitting on my butt all day long eating bon bons and watching Oprah (*insert sarcastic voice here* because isn’t that what all women who don’t work do??). 

Monday and Tuesday were days that I got to talk about whatever I felt like and it was awesome. My blog had a purpose. I had a real “why”. 

But now that I have a job, my “why” is not the same. Honestly, I don’t have a “why” right now except for the fact that I like doing this. But not having a why is hard. I don’t feel as though my posts are (for lack of a better word) interesting enough. I am not writing anything unique or purposeful right now so I am having a hard time. 

I love the fact that I still have people who go to my blog. Seriously, you guys are amazing. Thank you. I am going to continue to keep this blog because I really do enjoy it, especially when I feel like I have something interesting to say. So I hope that you will bear with me while I figure out what my new “why” is. Because lets get real. My life is probably pretty boring.

So that’s it for today. I know, I know, I didn’t warn you that there weren’t any photos in this post. So if you have made it this far, then you are a rockstar! Thanks for listening. 

Why do you blog? What is your “why”? Has your reason changed from when you started your blog?

Happy Wednesday! 


Linking up with Shanna

EDD Celebrations.

Yesterday was the last day that I had to fill out and send in my continued claim form for my unemployment. I can’t even describe to you how happy this makes me. Everything with EDD was way too complicated and frustrating BUT they were giving me money so I could eat and drive to interviews. So THANK YOU to EDD. Because without you (and your infuriating ways), I don’t even know where I would be. So we celebrated. And by we celebrated by going to BJs because we had a gift card and we went before I called EDD. So basically I am just saying that we went out to dinner and then later I accomplished this whole EDD thing and I am just calling our not very celebratory dinner, celebratory!

Happy Wednesday!

Linking up with Shanna

Sweet Teeth.

Oh Cadbury eggs. You are my favorite part about easter. I told Cody that I wanted a piece of candy so that amazing man went to the store and brought me this:


The other thing I love about Easter?? The end of lent. Except, I think my lent has actually helped me in the long run. I am hoping I can keep it up!

So, I am having a writer’s block kind of week. If you can even call it writer’s block since I don’t really consider myself a writer…like at all. haha. Thats Cody’s job.

But anyways, I think the writer’s block is because I am totally stressing out about waiting to hear back from job interviews and applying to new jobs and hoping to get an interview. I want to be hopeful and say I AM GETTING THIS JOB but then I feel that if I think that, I am jinxing it completely. But I also feel that if I don’t think that, then I am still jinxing it.

UGH. Its a Catch 22. Stupid anxiety.

Anyways, I am hoping planning for a better tomorrow and doing everything I can to make today good.


I have my bachelors in speech pathology and have been employed as a SLPA multiple times so I pretty much know what my time and education is worth. But, I have been filling out more random applications these days because there are very few SLPA jobs available here in lovely California… And as these applications become less and less like my degree, it is hard to know what to put when they ask for your salary requirements.

What is a lot of money and what is too little? How do I figure out the right amount to not get thrown out for asking too much or get taken advantage of by asking for too little?

Lets be real, you already know what you are going to pay me if I get the job. At least a salary range. There is no real reason for you to try and trick me…it’s just rude. Its like when a teacher gives you a test to see how much you can remember versus how much you actually learned. RUDE.

Anyways, thats my rant/confusion. Haha.

You know what else I find rude? When you make me give you a resume AND then also make me fill out an application with all of my work history on it (that is already on my resume).

Ok end of rant. Thanks for listening. 🙂

Here is a cute puppy photo to try and make up for this.


PS. Hopefully there was some humor in this.


Yesterday I was talking about the Dream Board that I made and one of my dreams was to get a job. If you have been reading my little blog for a while or if you just read my “about me” section then you know that I have been job hunting for some time now. There have been many ups and downs during this time and a lot of disappointment along with frustration and the newest one of disbelief. (Some places are just rude.) I have always tried to be as positive as I could be about the whole situation and tell myself that it will happen when it is supposed to happen. And I still believe that. After my awesome meltdown  yesterday from dealing with dumb people, I realized that I could complain about it and be upset and keep doing what I have been doing OR I could change what I am doing. I could try something different. I’m not sure what exactly is going to be different, but I am going to start with my dream that I turned into a goal on my dream board. I have made a plan, one that I can stick with and accomplish each day. I am excited. I hope it brings some change and hopefully a job.

Anyways, so thats what I have to say for today. Exciting, right? Well, on an even more exciting note, my new spring line arrived on my doorstep today 🙂

IMG_20130122_122649Happy Wednesday!

You Can’t Always Get What You Want.

women-39-s-crescent-sunshine-hoodie-A58P_EY8_heroI need this in my life. I don’t think you understand. I went to REI the other day and wore it around the store for a good 30 minutes. The only is $95. Say WHAAAATTT!?!?!! I don’t have a job over here. I seriously CAN NOT buy this. But I don’t think you realize how bad I WANT it.

I have never been in a position where I couldn’t buy what I wanted for myself. Obviously, there was always a limit and I am actually pretty good at using self control when it comes to spending money. I really like having money in my bank account and I hate having to take money out of savings. HATE it. In the entire time I have been unemployed (minus my jewelry business) I have not taken money out of my savings. I am really proud of myself for that.

I have to admit. Today was extremely difficult. I walked around the store trying really hard to talk myself out of buying this sweatshirt. I mean for one, it is a $95 sweatshirt! It is not made of gold or anything but in every other way it is perfect. But still, completely impractical for that price. At least for the moment anyway…

Another reason I had a difficult time saying no was because, as you know, my birthday was a week-ish ago and my grandma sent me a check for $100. Perfect, right!? Wrong. Instead of being able to buy myself something totally AWESOME, I got to buy a new car battery. yaay. Also, even if I didn’t need the battery, I wouldn’t have been able to spend this money on it. It wouldn’t have been a smart decision for me. I really don’t like to make bad decisions. It totally gives me anxiety.

I have never been in a situation like this before. This is the weirdest and probably one of the worst parts about not having a job. I have ALWAYS had a job. I have never had to REALLY tell myself no to something I want THIS BAD. I would like to point out that I am a terrible shopper to begin with. If I find something I really like in the store, I normally try it on and if I love it, I put it back and if I am still thinking about it in a day or 2 then I can go back and get it. It is even worse when I have a gift card or when I was younger and my dad would take me school shopping and gave me a budget. That gift card stays with me for MONTHS until I find something that I REALLY want or need. Something that makes me feel like I am getting my moneys worth. Ya know? And going shopping with my dad lasted months because I could never justify the money on things. He had to find ways to entertain himself because we would go shopping all the time and never buy anything. But that is a story for another day.

I guess this is just me and my firstworldproblems but it still affecting me. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am unable to take care of myself how I want to right now. In the way of being independent and all. Don’t get me wrong. For being jobless, I have it pretty good. I have a really great  AMAZING support system and I thankfully have Premier Designs because I don’t know where I would be without those 2 things. But really though. I am just not used to not being able to do the things that I want (within reason). I don’t really like it. BUT, this is where I am supposed to be right now. Things will work out eventually. And hopefully sooner, rather than later.

I hope you don’t take this as complaining. I’m not upset about the sweater (even though I totally want it), I am more upset with the situation. I am adjusting.  I also don’t want this to be taken as I have always gotten everything I have ever wanted. I am used to working and just really good at budgeting what I earn.

But back to the sweater, Cody and I decided that I could buy the sweater once I got a job or if I get a $2000 month with Premier Designs. I hope either one of those comes soon.

PS. sorry about the DUMB spacing in this. WordPress is being stupid.
(if it isn’t dumb, then cool. WordPress fixed itself)


So I am going to sandwich my not as fun post between some awesomely adorable pictures of Ellie.

I guess I haven’t written about my job situation in a while. It was one of the main reasons I started a blog. But lately, it seems, that everything is getting a little redundant and I have nothing new to say. Just the same old applying and  interviewing and nothing working out. I think part of the reason things aren’t working out when I apply outside my speech area, is not because I don’t have the knowledge or the experience, but that someone probably has a million percent more knowledge and experience than me because this is THEIR field. And this is hard for me because I don’t think I want to do speech anymore. I have had one good experience working in this field and the rest haven’t been so awesome. Maybe thats what ruined it for me. looking back and remembering how I was treated. Even now when I go volunteer, I sit there and watch and do nothing else because she has nothing for me to do.

So I think it is time for a real change. How do I figure out what I want to do with my life. I have always been a planner and I am not very good at not knowing. Especially when it comes to where my life is going. I mean, I am going to be 25 in less than 2 weeks and this is definitely NOT where I thought I would be. It is completely freaking me out.

So how do I decide what I want to do? Where does one even start? I have gone to my local community college’s career center, and they were absolutely no help. I thought they were joking when they told me to “google it”. Are you serious? When I tried to use my old university’s career center, they told me that because I was no longer a student, I would need to pay $60 to use their services. Wait what? Let me get this straight, I could have used it when I was in school and not looking for a job, but now that I have graduated and need a job I can’t? You make no sense.

 I guess maybe I should actually read this book I bought last year. Maybe that will help? Who knows.

But here is to change and to not knowing. Hopefully I can figure this out sooner rather than later. And here is to a post that hopefully makes some sort of sense, since I never proof read these things. Also, here is to you, for reading this long, and not so awesomely positive post. You rock if you made it all the way through.

She was so mad I made her wear a sweater.

Sneak Peak.

I wasn’t going to write anything today. I procrastinated all day and then when I was ready to sit down and write, Cody wanted to have date night. Who was I to complain. But then I realized that I wasn’t able to NOT write something. I haven’t missed a day and I wasn’t about to start now!
So here is a little bit of what my life looks like these days.

Cover letters and follow up calls and fingers crossed for interviews.

(here are just a few of those cover letters…I swear I am not just sitting on my ass…)


(PS. I totally love my job)

Arts-y things for Thanksgiving.

(here is a little sneak peak)

I am sure you are just dying to know more about my fabulous life, but really this is what it is…haha. The arts-y stuff and the jewelry I can live with/really enjoy. however, I am just ready for the cover letters, follow up calls, and keeping my fingers crossed to be over. SUPER exciting right!??

Happy Wednesday!